Hurt

I feel like listening to Nine Inch Nails today. I'm not being overly dramatic and I don't feel like working out today. I just feel that the song "Hurt" covers just about all that I am feeling. I really liked this song in high school. I used to sing and yell and scream it when no one was home. Johnny Cash also did a version of the song. Johnny's version was unique in the way that you could feel the pain and regret in his voice. Of course as I write this I switch to Mr. Cash. Most people listen to music and feel some sense of comradre with the artist. But I believe this song only stings those with the most self loathing, regret and pain. I think Johnny chose this song because for just a few seconds his heart didn't feel like it was full of cement. Maybe he felt human again for a change. When I was in high school I felt "connected" to the artist. I had felt what he's feeling. As an older voice now I can't help but think what a dumb knownothing little shit I was. I don't really talk about loss and regret. I bury it deep. It's like waking up everyday in the middle of a funeral. These nagging little injuries that no one can see. Maybe Johnny felt the way I feel. Maybe Trent felt the I feel. MAYBE.