Looking in the Mirror

The other day I looked in the mirror. To be quite honest I had no I idea who I was looking at. His hair was starting to gray and his forehead had wrinkles. Those nasty black circles under his eyes. The years of hangovers and bad decisions had finally got to me. At 30 I feel like I have a hangover even if I don't drink the night before. No one told me about that. No one told me that my body will hurt more with physical activity but you can say whatever you wish to me its forgotten in moments. Not because the words don't have merit or truth in them but because I've been called every name in the book and after that there is nowhere else to go. When I was young I saw the movie "Terminator 2 Judgement Day". I saw the world more through John Connor's eyes. Getting old and the lack of emotion. I feel much more like that old model terminator machine. I wake up do what I have to do and go to sleep. Nothing good or bad just treading water in the deep end of the ocean.